I survived the half of 2015 after the world ended and had an okay holiday.  Sometimes things are okay, and my goal is to make things okay more of the time.  I still feel really low whenever I run out of stuff to keep me occupied, but I haven't given up working on it.  I guess I have some ideas for resolutions, but they're more for having not killed ( Read more... )

I want to make myself keep posting because I'm hoping it'll be good for my mental health.  (My new therapist isn't the sort to tell me what to do outside of therapy, and I'm glad the impulse to write is coming from me.)  I've been a mess for about two months now, and it didn't look like it was going to get any better until approximately two days ( Read more... )

I was off T a grand total of about ten weeks before I saw a super-competent trans activist NP and went back on ultra-low dose gel teamed up with raloxifene, an E blocker, on 21 September.  It's only been a couple weeks, and I haven't noticed any changes or side-effects, not even the mania I got every time I started or re-started T, possibly because ( Read more... )

I haven't been here in a while because my life kinda fell apart.  I guess I just want to let people know I'm alive in case anyone was wondering, or even just to put it out there for myself because I want it to be less surprising to me.  I'm trying to catch up on everyone's posts from the past two months.  I want to say more but don't even know ( Read more... )